I first smoked pot with my older brother when I was 14. I didn’t want to at first, but I let him talk me into it. I started to enjoy it. Before long it became the only way I could enjoy myself. Every spare dollar I had was spent on pot. Eventually my brother and I did shrooms and ecstasy together. Looking back, I feel like he was using me, taking advantage of his status as an older sibling role model to have someone to use drugs with and to feel validated in his behavior with drugs. No matter what happens, you MUST stay true to yourself and don’t let anyone manipulate you.
Sometimes I worry I’m not the same person I was before I used drugs. I struggle with depression and anxiety, and it’s difficult for me to find joy in my day-to-day life the way I used to. Letting by brother talk me into drugs is the biggest regret of my life. He’s overdosed on heroin twice and almost died because of it. Drugs are a gamble: with your personality, and ultimately, your life.